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The past 2 years have been the hardest years of my life. I’ve become better, but through so many changes. I accepted Jesus Christ into my heart the second Sunday of August 2006. Staying with Him & not going back to the way I use to be was very hard at first. Rewarding, but still hard. Sometimes I had thoughts like why bother? Everyone else around me who isn’t saved is having fun. Why do I have to sit back & watch while everyone who isn’t saved is having the time of their life?

But then I scolded myself. Being God’s child shouldn’t have felt like a chore. Being God’s child was a blessing. I kept my head up & I had the right kind of fun. Football games, movie & bowling nights, sleepovers & rolling yards :). I wasn’t perfect-never have been never will be. I simply didn’t give in. For the first year I had the most wonderful time. Everything was going right. I was growing in Christ, I had great grades, a ton of friends, & a wonderful boyfriend. August 10, 2007 my Great Grandfather passed away. I loved my Paw Paw more than anything in the world & losing him was the hardest thing I’ve ever went through. With the support of my family & my Jacob(boyfriend), I made it through the loss. School became harder, life at home became more hetic, & Bible Drill season started. I didn’t even know all the books of the Bible. So over Christmas vacation, I learned them all-alone. When the season began, I studied. And practiced. And studied & practiced some more. I got Superior. It felt amazing when a few months ago I didn’t even know all the books. Here I was, the very best. Well, my individual best :).

My Grandpa’s birthday passed on February 1. He would have been 84. I was sad that day, but I had Jacob by my side to cheer me up. After a while, I got back into my own routine. But on May 2, that also changed. Jacob broke up with me. May 3 would have been our 2 & 1/2 year anniversary. That night I broke down. Everything was changing. I was getting older & wiser. And I was afraid. I stayed up all night thinking about what all had stayed the same in the past year. There was only one thing I realized that didn’t change-my Love for God.

I still miss my Paw Paw. I rock at Bible Drills. Losing Jacob was hard, it’s still hard. But through all of these, I learned so much about myself. Losing Paw Paw, I realized that I am stronger than I make myself out to be. Through Bible Drills, I learned that I can do anything I set my mind to, no matter what anyone may say. And dating Jacob helped me not only how wonderful he is, but how wonderful I can be too. I am a good person. I don’t think I’m perfect-that will never be. But for the first time in my life, I feel good about who I am. I am proud that I am Vernon Leon Rosamond’s great grand-daughter. I am proud that I placed Superior in State Bible Drills. I am proud that I had the chance to be accpeted in Jacob Roeland’s life and in his heart also.

But most of all, I am proud that I am a child of God. Trials in life will bring out the best of me. Thanks to times like this, I am no longer afraid of change. But I accept it. Because, being God’s child-that will never change